Was up at about 5.30 am. Decided to take an early morning walk. There’s been so many starts and stops and re-start as I try to make exercising a part of my routine.

I decided not to bring my techie handphone. No, no gadgets this morning. I set out on my usual track but at a crossroad decided to allow myself to drift instead of taking the familiar and calculated steps. It was refreshing to discover places of the estate that I had never explored. Can’t imagine that I’ve lived here for over two years and not seeing what I saw today.

Mostly private property that only about 20% of the population can afford. At 6 am, there was little activity in most of the homes. I wondered how the rich live. I saw a few small banana trees growing out of a small opening in the pavement outside one of the houses. You don’t find a lot of those in urban city Singapore. I didn’t expect to see that.

I saw two joggers and found myself half following them, half drifting into a big park with a running track. It was still dark. It hit me then that I didn’t know where I was and that if a robber were to stop me in my track, there’d be no one around to help me.

Lord, in 2010, I took a leap of faith and left the security of my 22+ year work to pioneer digital storytelling. I believe that Singapore needs storytelling. People need to listen to one another. People need to talk to one another. My friends tell me I was brave to do that. At 50.

Brave? I was, I am driven by a passion, a dream. Coupled with a whole lot of idealism. Naive I was. I thought many times long ago that I would one day go for broke for you to prove the limits of your faithfulness. Ha! I’m proving the limits of mine!

Lord, if I could have seen the future and known all that I would be going through today, the uncharted territories I would track, the so many new things I would have to learn, maybe, just maybe I wouldn’t have made the choices that I made. Lord, I have a team now. How can I lead a team when where I am taking them is where I have not been to myself?

Lord, this morning while it was still dark, I saw the bright moon and some stars. I kept walking when I was lost. The beauty that I’ve been missing out on these past two years captivated me. And then I found the streets signs. I know those names. I just hadn’t explored further and deeper. I saw buildings I never saw. I couldn’t see my way but I heard the familiar sounds of the highway nearby. And I knew I couldn’t have been too far lost.

Lord, I enjoyed my talk with you this morning.

I kept walking and found an unfamiliar bus stop… but I recognised the bus number. I knew I couldn’t be too far lost.

Lord, I discovered an exercise station this morning. It’s just around the corner from my block – almost at my door step! I’ve signed up for gym memberships in the past. I’ve given up those… too far and too expensive. I’ve been living here for two years. How come I never discovered this FREE exercise station with all the equipment that I fits all the kinds of exercise that I need and like to do?

Lord, I’ve allowed myself to drift in this plunge I took in digital storytelling. The path is unfamiliar and not easy. It’s ok Lord, you are with me and together we will do exploits and discover treasures along the way.